This has nothing to do with my mouth

but yey!!! I'm getting my half sleeve finished tomorrow!!!

Pretty Pretty Profile

Didn't think those words would EVER apply to me

Something I forgot to write about...I'm pretty sure I should probably be a blonde. So, for the first month of brushing my teeth after surgery, I think that I don't feel the toothbrush on my teeth because of the splint or something. I realized last week after poking at all of my gums that they are all completely numb. Who doesn't realize that their entire mouth is numb? WHO?? Also, was poking around my face last night when I felt it. I FELT A SCREW. Right below my eye. Just the left one though, can't feel the right one. isn't that gross? Anyways, i'm hungry...Have a great night!

Maybe I'm just weird

but for almost a year before my surgery I didn't want to buy clothes that I thought would bring attention to me, didn't want to get my hair cut, didn't want to do my nails anymore....any clothes or makeup that I bought I told myself I wouldn't use until after the surgery. Anything to keep people from looking at me. I actually bought some clothes that I really liked and waited till after surgery to wear them. Am I the only one? Anyway, I got my splint out on wednesday (and for anyone who's wondering, like I was, it doesn't hurt! he just cuts the wires and the thing falls out and you rush to the sink to brush your nasty mouth), and now I feel like I can go out and do stuff...and I did get a pumpkin spice latte and drank it in public and it WAS awesome. I actually had one yesterday and today and possibly tomorrow :-). So yesterday was my first outing to a restaurant. Chris had gotten a birthday coupon for one free meal at texas de brazil. While I obviously can't have steak, they still had an amazing amount of delicious food for me to choose from. it was very nice. and tonight I went out to the mall with one of my best friends...she is the sweetest...and she has the same orthodontist, what are the odds lol.

I don't think that most people really understand why I had the surgery or that it was COMPLETELY medically necessary. They don't understand that it's a deformity that has to be fixed through surgery. They don't understand how major the surgery really is, or how much it affects EVERY aspect of your life. There wasn't any amount of time that I wasn't thinking about it or stressing over it. This deformity had a hand in even the smallest of decisions in my life...and I don't think people can really understand it. Not unless you experience it. This blog and connecting with people who understand has kept me sane. Thank you all so much!

For those of you that have asked, the depression is not because of the surgery. Leading up to the surgery and everything I had to go through beforehand did contribute some but was still not the cause. The surgery has helped and I'm so grateful that I had it and that everything worked out and that I seem to be healing well. so thankful.

Goodnight all!

And there was much rejoicing (and a little wine)

It's out!!!!!

This morning I got a text from my friend Jill who goes to the same ortho as me. She was at the ortho and saw a list of appointments for today and saw my name came up...and she was all like "I KNOW her!!" and all of the ladies at the office said how excited they were to see me (this is the first time they've seen me since surgery).
I think I'm definately going to get self esteem issues when I walk into a room and DON'T receive a bunch of compliments on my new face lol.

I'll post pictures of my now much smaller looking teeth later...

!!!!!!!

I'm getting my splint out tomorrow and then going straight to the orthodontist!!! I have to go straight to the orthodontist because they cut my upper archwire between my front teeth since he widened my upper jaw. I also noticed one of my brackets is no longer attached to my tooth. It makes sense that that particular tooth is the most awake and angry (although most of my teeth are very sensitive now and generally very unhappy). Pray my jaw doesn't get stuck like it has been and I can open wide enough for him to get the splint out and for the orthodontist to be able to work on me. I'M SO SCARED!
Pictures tomorrow after I get the monstrosity out!
Here is the most unflattering pictures EVER!




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Here's my cute new puppy!

And his cute bunny butt!

startin to see the new me!

Has anyone gone through this surgery struggling with depression already? I know I've read alot that people become depressed after about 6 months if the braces haven't come off by then. here is some new pics and the old one just for comparison purposes. sorry about the weird lighting, I didn't feel like moving the lamp to the other side of the room. my mouth still looks weird from the front, but i still have the big ol splint in there too so we'll see next week what I look like without the splint.

:-(

I'm feeling very down and would really like a sandwich. I hate feeling depressed.

I dreamed that I was chewing on some food (mmmmm chicken...) and when I woke up my jaw hurt so bad!!

OWWW

These nerves can stop waking up now!! Go back to sleep! OOWWWW

What??

Only need to lose 5 more pounds to be this skinny again!



This was almost exactly 3 years ago...wow. And that was from halloween and everyone's allowed to dress like that for halloween. :-P
I lost 9 lbs the first week after surgery, but i'm holding steady at 100...maybe if I work out...
I'm actually craving fattening foods less and less. Don't get me wrong, I will be getting that whopper when I can actually eat one but I won't make it a habit.