short update

Yes, I have rheumatoid disease which is why I had a relapse. The drugs they're going to put me on sound pretty scary but i'm trying not to think of it. I have felt like crap since I had to go off of the steroids that I was on for about 3 weeks. The steroids were the final test to make completely sure I have rheumatoid. I don't see getting my jaw broken again right now, I would be too afraid of a relapse to happen again if I would have to go off of the meds when we decide to get pregnant. These drugs are VERY toxic and I can't get pregnant while on them :-(

I had sinus surgery a week ago and got the splints out of my nose today and it's amazing to be able to breathe like this!

I wonder how many people/bloggers that went through surgery at the same time as me still get on their blogs?

I got married to a very amazing man on valentines day :-)))

Happy monday everyone!

Dr. Langan

Is so funny and sweet to me
Dr. Langan: So how have you been feeling since last week?
me: well, it really hurt for the first couple of days but it's getting better..
Dr. L: haha, well if you had seen what I did to you last week you'd know why it hurt so bad!
LOL
and he's so sweet he kept saying how I was too cute to be stressed or in so much pain...awwww

Bleh. i'm about to get a cold :-/

weird..

anaesthesia...
usually when I start to come out of it, i freak out emotionally and bawl like crazy even though I can't even really open my eyes. I don't know why...it's very strange. and this time I cried and hyperventilated...they kept trying to calm me down and get me to breathe normal but I couldn't. I could not control it. so weird. when I googled it a few people did say they did the same thing. I wonder why.
My jaw still hurts and i can't open very wide, less than before. i just hope it heals and gets better.

arthrocentesis

Tomorrow morning. woot! anaesthesia!

i'm getting an arthrocentesis done next wednesday...yey more anaesthesia! sooo...anyone want to donate to "Corey can't afford anymore freakin medical bills" fund??

SO discouraged

and so tired...it has just been one bad thing after another...how much more do I have to take??
here's what they found out that I have and that I have to see a specialist for
Rheumatoid Arthritis

pain

So I had an MRI done on monday of my jaw joints...the purpose of it was so that Dr. Langan could get a clear picture of my joints in order to do an arthrocentesis (flush them and then inject them with steroids). If this works it could be a permanent solution to my pain, but after everything I've been through and how severe the pain has gotten I'm not too hopeful. Dr. Fuselier thinks my arthritis may even be an autoimmune disease..rheumatoid arthritis meaning it affects other parts of my body. I am getting bloodwork for that next week. Dr. Langan explained why I had a relapse and I finally got to understand how that happened. See, since my joints have no more cushioning between them, they have been grinding bone on bone and I have lost 1mm of bone from my joints since surgery. that in turn caused my jaw to shorten that 1mm...but when it shortens 1mm it actually causes a 3mm open bite for every 1mm loss of bone. that in turn caused a 5mm overbite. Dr. Langan said that after the arthrocentesis it will settle my joints and then he wants to do the lower jaw surgery on me to correct my open and over bite. I am in SO MUCH pain that I could sleep all day and spend my days in a drugged funk...but I can't and I won't and I get SO irritated with lazy people and people who complain of normal aches and pains. I'm 25 and in severe pain because of this but refuse to take prescription drugs because of the fact that there are a lot of addictive personalities running through my family. I am so discouraged.