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Not really sure what to do anymore. I feel so bad all the time, medication relieves some of my pain but adds so much to the fatigue...i'm actually thinking of looking into disability because I've already had to go down in my hours because I just can't handle my job anymore and I still have a hard time, i don't know how much longer I can do it at all. The doctor said that the arthritis is already in my hands and every time they cramp up when I'm grooming a dog I see that rheumatoid commercial with the lady with the gnarled up hands in my head and I get upset. I just imagine how much this job is accelerating the degeneration and it scares me.